bobby redux.

this weekend was my family's last up north for the summer. when we were kids we used to go up at least once in the winter and drive the trucks across the frozen lake for an icy weekend, but that never happens anymore. with most of us grown up, two college age, two graduating high school soon and three more coming up the ranks of a school district time seems hard to come by. there's nothing like a family to screw up a family - or maybe its families are just like a drink that keeps on spilling and you keep cleaning it up but nothing ever changes. i made the four hour drive from my apartment in connecticut to my aunts house in syracuse so that bfab and i could drive up north together. the weekend was met mostly with new happy memories of another four days spent up north, but i can't push away the fact that i am so often treated as invisible and incompetent. its gotten so bad that new family members have started to notice. i don't wish to be the favorite, God knows i don't want that, i just wish i could be treated right. i wish that my anger with the present situation didnt make bfab feel worse than she already does about her horrible father.

nick and i spent the day waterskiing. nick is only younger than myself, and sharing the oldest spotlight has been something we've done well growing up. we reveled in one of the last great days on the lake and went out one last time as the sun went down so i could get some shots and we could both get one last run. i was hoping to capture a similar image to the one that was taken of our uncle years ago that now hangs in my grandparents house. maybe this will become a future christmas present.