Keep Out

This kinda sums up how i've been feeling recently. I suffered from post natal depression after Phoebe was born and i thought i was rid of it but it's returned worse than ever :( Typical of me too i've put up my defences rather then talking to people about how i feel (stupid i know but thats how i deal with things)

So on top of feeling miserable i've had a bad day with Phoebe which just makes things 100times worse, she had her injections yesterday so she's spent most of today clinging to my leg and crying when i prise her off meaning i've spent all day either stomping about the house in a bad mood or crying with her cos i feel so down. I feel so guilty cos i know she deserves a better and happier mummy but i can't seem to shake this off :(

All i want is to be rid of this f***ing god awful state of mind for good, not too much to ask surely?? I wouldn't even wish this on my worst enemy