Grief

A friend gave me this butterfly necklace this evening for Christmas. She chose it because when our boss died this summer there were beautiful white butterflies fluttering around his grave at his funeral. Others saw a big butterfly inside the church.

I've been finding life very hard since he fell ill and died. I had no idea how much I loved him until he was gone. We rowed, argued, made fun of each other, got stressed at each other but we also sat next to each other and worked in partnership five days a week for many years and knew so much about each other. He was only 43 and I never thought he'd slip away so suddenly leaving me feeling very alone.

Every day I feel sad and I quite often cry. I know he wouldn't want me too but I miss him so much.

Life is so fragile just like a butterfly.

I wish he'd come back walking through the door with his big heart and smile. My life is poorer without him.