light holding the darkness in check

A lot about today has been spent in the dark-been starring in the ceiling and just didn't have a grip om life
Highlights of dark day
-had an awful dream where I dreamt I was being strangled
-my nieces were up early and they were so noisy and woke up
-had a nasty argument with my former girlfriend (don't know what to call her now since I was the one left standing alone)-though not malicious,my heart is kind of too damaged to even handle conversations
-found it impossible to help tidy up with crutches-they kept falling and I got so frustrated with my inability to do things
-lost my peace,my focus and my attitude just plummeted...a good 2hrs in the word helped to revive me back a bit
-the lady of the house was too lazy to cook tonight so we had bread for dinner (fantastic:-( )
-Just got news my sister is really sick and they decided to move her to SA-i just feel helpless and sad,my heart bleeds at my sister's illness and I have nothing I can do to help except to lift her up to the Lord

Jesus the way,the truth ,the life and light-so that why I find myself starring at the light in the ceiling....it continues to shine no matter what is happening in the room

Kinda feel that's how I'm feeling-God is still God in goodand bad days -and I will trust Him with everything