what i feel, i can't say

The concept of a "new year" feels so fake - it's so funny thinking back to when I was a kid and how I used to feel that this new beginning would feel somewhat different. It's still a good chance to reflect on the year and on how much things have changed or moved on I guess.

I had another wave of realisation last night on my idea of constantly swimming against the tide. It sounds a bit odd but I realised that sometimes my anger/disappointment with the world comes from my own ideas of what the world expects from me. And I'm not even sure if I know what I mean by "the world" but still…it was an amazing set of thoughts that popped in my head at 1am! The point was it made me realise that there was no point in being so angry….and that's my new year's resolution this year. To just let go of things a bit more.

I love getting older - it's so much better when you finally begin to understand yourself, isn't it?!

Today I had a lazy day, had lunch, spoke to Helene on Skype for an hour, went for a walk to the beach with my mum and had more birthday cake!

My other new year's resolution is to stick with blip every day. I was looking at some photos the other day and realised that although at the time the pictures I took seemed a bit boring, when I look back through my journal, I rather have those pictures there than not. So here's to my next 365!! :)