Take one as necessary

I don't tend to write too much these days about things too emotional, but today has been a bit of a day of thoughts.

I met up with my first love tonight after a chance meeting last week. It's been 15 years or so since I've seen him and rather startlingly he hasn't changed. I thought it would be one of those situations where you sit around a little awkwardly mentioning a few things that you both have different memories of happening and have a laugh. I find talking about anything of any seriousness excruciatingly difficult at the best of times, but this was a full-on analysis of everything that happened between us (he is now a consultant psychiatrist) and I am left a little in need of a good beer and a biscuit. I'm not sure what to do with this poodle.

Parallel to this I've something else going on in my life that I can't get my head around at all. One of those situations where you can't really let yourself think about what might be happening because it might not, or you just aren't sure if you thought it might, or never will.

I did say it was a thoughtful day and I needed a good beer and a biscuit :)