In A Bit of a Pickle

Oh dear, what a day. I think I may have just ruined one of the only good things going on in my life. I was supposed to go out with a guy I've been seeing, but when I checked our plans, he said he wasn't well. It's happened a few times, and I'm just so disappointed. I have spent the last 2 weeks missing him and practically counting down the days till I can see him again. I guess insecurity reared it's ugly head, and I told him not to make excuses if he didn't want to see me. He got a bit upset, understandably, at being branded a liar, and we haven't sorted it out. I feel awful. He must be pretty mad as he hasn't responded to my text, and I just want to talk to him and put it right. I really don't think I'll ever get married, even this dating thing is just too hard. This is probably my fault, as I just assumed things should be moving along faster than they are, as having been alone for the last four years, I was finally ready to move on. I hope it can be fixed, as this feeling is horrible.

Any ideas?