Groundhog Day

So we're gonna have another six more weeks of winter, according to our favorite, furry, four-legged rodent. I always suspected I'm seasonal affective, so maybe I should just hibernate until Spring.

Today also reminds me of the movie, where Bill Murray lives the same day, over and over again, until he finally gets it "right". A metaphor for Life, it's also not uncommon for us to find ourselves constantly repeating history, reliving variations of the same song. I always believed this was the Universe's way of testing us. Until we can finally pass the challenge we are presented with, it'll seem like we are going in circles. Whether it's the monotonous daily routines of life or the people we get involved with in relationships, there is a lesson to be learned. Only when we recognize the mistakes we've been repeating can we graduate to the next level.

For me, I've lost track of how many times I've gone through the 5 stages of grief over a failed relationship.
- Denial: "He'll come back to me. He's done it twice already. Third time's the charm, right?"
- Anger: "How could he do this to me? How dare he let me fall for him?"
- Bargaining: "I'm learning from my mistakes. I'm a better person now. I'll move wherever he wants to go, so we can make this work."

Pause! Someone please save me before I fall into the dreaded Depression stage...

For him, I have a feeling he's been through the same cycle before of meeting someone, getting involved, developing feelings, and then wanting to move away. Last time, supposedly she let him go and then regretted it later. We all have patterns and hard habits to break.

I'm ready to break my routine and do whatever it takes to make my relationships work. Maybe tomorrow I'll wake up and it won't be 5 o'clock again.