Sometimes I wish

Sometimes I wish I wasn't burdened with my mind.... I wish I could have just 5 minutes it wasn't racing....
Even to have a full conversation with someone with my heart feeling like it's going to burst out my chest, my palms getting sweaty and losing all control of realistic thinking.

My anxiety is not just creeping back it's getting to where I feel it's going to swallow me hole again!

I have so much going on just now which is raising so many emotions.

I have spent the best part of my life caring for others and doing things for everyone else and I don't regret or would change it for the world but it's time I did something for me! We are about to embark on the biggest adventure of our life as we move 10.000 miles from Scotland to Melbourne. Many people have said it will make us or break us as a couple and to be honest I disagree I think it will either make or break me. This move is either going to be exactly what my ongoing battle with anxiety needs or it's going to tip me over the edge again. This is my biggest fear.... I have been there before and it's the hardest thing Iv ever battled! This terrifies me!! But worse case happens I know I'll fight it again!!


I am exhausted emotionally and physically!!