19th March 2014

Had a bit of a moment this morning where I was struggling ... a lot. My brain was in absolute overdrive and I couldn't switch it off. My black dog was so big he was sitting in my lap and making me feel suffocated. And then I remembered that I was in control, not the dog. So I made him sit on the floor and watch me do some housework and gradually he got smaller and quieter. Without this technique I could've quite easily got back in bed and slept. Instead I got on with my day and kept in control.

I was supposed to be having lunch with my aunt but she had to go into HR today to talk about her taking redundancy. She hasn't been offered the job she wanted after a reshuffle and she doesn't want to work for the council anymore. I was sad that she had to cancel our lunch but was very glad that she did. I didn't want my mood to spoil our lunch. Plus she would worry about me and she has more than enough on her plate at the moment.