No Make Up Selfie

Friday; kicked off at 0615; Tom arrived, sans Alex; we watched Nearly Naked Animals for twenty minutes - cool show! - then Alex arrived and I pottered about the kitchen for a while.

Breakfast, coffee, dressed, packed school bags, blah. She never phoned.

Wandered up the road, curtains still drawn at #4. Called her, answerphone. Hmmmm

School drop off then Alex and I went into town, collected the most exquisite treacle tart from a shady car park where she just made my breathing erratic and heart pound... I'm not 17, how is this possible?

I tried not to think about her, failed, blipped Cigs on York Lane, then Tesco, home via hers to find curtains opened; slept in? Went in, house pig sty. This needs to be addressed. I have a plan, cos I find it disgusting that they live in squalor.

Home, grabbed back sale stuff and met bike shop Neill and went to school, bought cakes a plenty and home for lunch.

Maw and Paw arrived, went to view the walled garden, something Paw has wanted to do for years, so to be able to deliver it gave a warm fuzzy glow. 'Mr Smith' and Paw were like old buddies; so good to see one so interested, one so willing to share his knowledge and experience.

Took my no make up selfie in the old greenhouse there; as Tom remarked on the way home - it's a scary place. It's eerie, empty, the ghosts omnipresent, the outside world shut out, save two roe deer, spooked by us; how do two roe deer get into a walled garden???

Anyway, home, fed boys, folks came down and read them stories, showed them photos chatted about their trip to Valencia. Then bathed, bed and the adults had dinner; got a lot in about her and I think finally we might be getting through to them. Tom also helped massively by matter of factly dropping Sharon into the conversation like it was the most normal thing. Sometimes adults should take on board children's flexibility.

Also later on, said I might have friend wanting to go to Orkney; no eyelids were batted. Are they not interested? Or stupid? Or is this them being supportive?

They left, well fed, happy to see me and boys happy.

Then I got a call from a very drunken lady; at home, but after a brush with the law but sounded really relaxed (not just pissed) and smiling and looking forward to us seeing each other tomorrow.