didn't want to miss a day

& it appears the only picture i took today was of myself. lol

this is me in what was left of my home. i helped my (ex)boyfriend pack up everything. and that was that.

i feel empty & lonely & scared & sad...

i'm scared we won't have a home together again. i'm scared that i've ruined everything. i'm scared that i'll need him and he won't be across town as he has been for the last few weeks.

i'm scared i won't be able to love him again. i just want to bawl my eyes out really. and i want a hug, from him.

i hate this. i hate everything

sigh