Day 144 - terrible day

A walk at dusk after a bad day and a complete meltdown.

In the morning I wrote:
'Scared, trapped, doom, want to cancel plans, worry I'm not experiencing anything different from others. Can't stand this. Want to cancel and sleep but feel bad cancelling so will go out. Probably a good distraction anyway.'

I did go out. Tyndale was really ok. This stressed me. Then I had a difficult meet up with some friends. My mood turned black.

I got home and saw the reply from Lucy. I completely lost it.