Just this moment

A back-dated blip since I was in no state yesterday to think about blipping.

But doing so now as it's clear that blip has become as much a diary kind of tool as about photography.

My 'Go now and live' poster, yet sometimes 'Go now and live' is the hardest think of all to do.

Today (yesterday now) I possibly learned more about myself and my head than I have in a long time. And not in a good way. What is scariest is quite how quickly my mental health deteriorated and to what degree it did.

So many seemingly rational thoughts, so many feelings...

I no longer believe that what I got through once I can again.

But the focus, in many areas, has to be less 'Go now and live' but more 'Just not today' and 'Just this moment'