Busy day

Met a friend at the park today, little miss had a lovely time on the swings and mummy got a nice cream, so everyone was happy!

Walking home along the seafront was lovely; a brisk sea breeze cooling the air, the sound of the sea lapping at the pebbles, the tang of the seaweed in your nostrils. It made me feel very nostalgic, thinking back to all the lovely summers I spent at the sea side with my grandparents. Even now, the sound of the sea is one of the most comforting noises I know as it just takes me back to those times. I wish, I wish I wish my grandparents could have met their great grand daughter. They would have adored her! Sadly my grandad passed away some years ago, and my nan has altzheimers disease, rendering her a completely different person to the one I knew and loved so much. Earlier this year she kept complaining to the nurses at her care home because she said that an old woman kept on peering in at her window and frightening her. In the end they had to remove the mirror from her room. She does not understand that she is in her 80s, and doesn't know who any of us (the family that she placed above all else her whole life) are. Oh, it makes my heart ache to think of her like that. Having children seems to really focus thoughts on mortality - or maybe it's just me?! I think a lot more about my own childhood these days, and it is so strange to think I was once her age when I look at my little daughter. I am looking forward to us having many happy summers full of sandy feet and laughter with little miss, just like I did with my folks. I know my Nan and Grandad would approve heartily of that, and although they aren't here, in some ways they are always here - through all the things they shared and taught me. I do miss them.