I woke myself up early hours standing in the hall banging my fist on the cupboard door; I was dreaming and I can remember it vividly. I now have a bruise.

Got up later and vegged on the sofa.
Later went out for a coffee where I felt detached and felt my chest sore and my heart racing. I was very aware of the noise of chatter and sat and watched a father and son play on their ipad together laughing. Felt happy and sad all in one go.
I have no control over my feelings today.

Went a walk later on before popping in to see my Grandma.

Tomorrow I have a free day; Mum is on holiday. What to do…..