13th July 2014

My youngest came with me for my walk today, we waited until there was a break in the cloud and then off we went!

Mr S took us all out for lunch followed by a short drive and a day spent out as a family.

Had to have a nice long meditation session this evening to clear away the negative thoughts again. I always tend to struggle at this time of year. It's my Dad's birthday followed shortly by the anniversary of his death. He only lived for 42 years (same age as I am now) and it often makes me wonder how different our lives would've been if we had known him longer. I was 3 1/2 years old; I don't have any memories of him, only photos. He didn't have a chance to see us grow. The only blessing to his death was he didn't suffer too long with leukaemia, in fact he never knew he had it. It was only found during his autopsy. I wish I knew more about my Dad, Mum always told us stories of him but it's not the same as actually growing up with him. Everyone always had something funny, amusing, loving to say about him. I just hope I leave my friends and family with great memories of me when I go.