Today everything was almost changed forever

Today Anabel got hit by a car. We were coming back from shopping and I was getting the kids out of the car. The usual cuffuffle ensued and I remember releasing Anabel and saying the words, 'get on the pavement now' which she did. I then turned my attention to the screaming Etta with the intention of getting her out next then walking them both across the road.

There was then a loud thump and the screech of a cars brake followed by a loud collision noise. I thought someone had driven into my car door until I heard a scream and saw Anabel further up the road trying to get up with one of her Croc shoes far away from her. Her face was contorted in pain. Realisation dawned and then it was like stepping into a bad dream or horror film. People arrived from everywhere, panic engulfed, breath ran short, as I took my daughter from whoever had picked her up and kept asking, shouting at everyone, anyone if she was going to die. She was screaming and the general chat was that she had been tossed in the air and it was serious.

An ambulance was called, people were kind. I finally calmed a little so then did poor Anabel. She appeared not obviously broken but the worry was internal bleeding. Ultrasounds and many check ups later have shown she may just have got away with minor cuts and bruises and a hard lesson learned. The car seemed to have clipped her more than rammed her and luckily the equally traumatised soul who was driving the car was only doing 15mph and had just come over a speed bump. Thank Fuck.

All's well that almost ends well. I am writing this from ward 3 of the sick kids. We are on one hour observations, then it will be every two hours. I feel traumatised as I keep going over every second and thought this might be cathartic. It happened so quickly. A mundane day turning into the day that everything was changed forever.

I hope I stop crying soon.