Live, love, laugh

Isn't this a beautiful piece of art? It's in my hallway and I admire it from time to time but tonight as I stand between the 2 rooms waiting for the boys who are restless to fall asleep I especially admire it.

I haven't had the best day. All of my family were a bit grumpy Marley more so than the others and it's really draining. Marley was not a happy boy, it started with me telling him not to throw a stick which he did so got told off, well that unleashed a torrent of anger in him, all the way to school he said he wanted to run away from me, he wanted to stay with another family, he didn't love me anymore etc etc. When he got to school i pretty much had to drag him into class and forcefully take his jacket and bag off, he growled at his teacher and the principal who passed by, she tried to put a smile on his face but it didn't work. He was the hulk type angry. I had stopped talking to him on the way to school, after having a disagreement with andre before he left and with Kanye screaming and shouting at the gate while we waited for the taxi, I was a bit fed up with everyone getting at me and i had to shut off the stuff Marley was hurling at me.

Still left me feeling deflated and defeated once they had all gone.

It was hard to get motivated to do housework today so I sat with harper showing him how to post in his toy post box. He was so proud the first time he did it himself! I clapped for him.

Mum came this afternoon to help with being here for Kanye despite only having surgery yesterday, it was a minor procedure to remove an area of skin on her forehead that the plastic surgeon felt needed more tests. Nonetheless she can't do too much but as I had to get Marley and his friend from school who was coming for a play date i needed someone here for Kanye. She also brought me a lot of things i needed.

I felt better this afternoon when marleys friends mum came to get him and we chatted for a bit. Nice to know I'm not alone when it comes to parenting boys!

I perked up that is until my ex blew up at me about the fundraising I'm doing for Kanye. I got called everything under the sun. Back to deflated and defeated. He did apologize pretty quickly and I think we both got mixed up/ the wrong end of the stick when we spoke but it doesn't take away how it made me feel.

So glad today's almost over. And all I can do is live, laugh ( afterwards) and love.