despair

....not only at the fact that I don't know how to spell despair...but at the realisation that internet dating will not save me from becoming even more of a crazy cat woman (currently without cat)...after getting bog eyed and bored of coursework last night, I decided to have a browse... only to be massively disappointed :-/ a reality I am having trouble feeling happy about! need to get myself a hobby...again!! nooo!
today was spent becoming more bog eyed and driving around looking at fields by the looks of things!