Curse on all inaction

Nature knows no pause in progress and development,
and attaches her curse on all inaction.

Johann Wolfgang von Goethe


It's been a rubbish day. I've been really sick. Couldn't sleep last night with the severe pain. Got a doctor's appointment today and she basically told me that there's nothing they can do I just have to wait until I get the consult of the specialist which could happen in 5-6 months. She told me to take more pain pills. If I develop symptoms of infection I can go to the emergency room but they can't really help me either. If I still feel this bad next week I can contact them again and they might(!) push my distress level (or what ever it is called) to busy. Wow. I feel so relieved right now - not at all.

I've been feeling really sick for a week now. Can't really eat, I feel dizzy all the time, get horrible headaches from not being able to eat and now I can't sleep but that's not yet enough to lift my attendance level for faster. I can't believe that this is happening. When did everything go so wrong in our current welfare state? We don't take care of anyone anymore.

Sorry for venting like this. I'm just so sick of being sick and tired and dragging on from day to day just trying to manage work and life itself. It's 10 more weeks left of this term and right now it feels like I'm not gonna make it without help which I'm apparently not gonna get.