Vertigo

This is my illustration on how my life feels at the moment with a carousel spinning around in my head. My dizziness in increasing and I noticed my diastolic blood pressure is high. I have no idea why. Perhaps due to the increased pain medication?

Today I finally called the specialists office and told them how I'm feeling and they got my labs for this week and the doctors appointment on 31st of October! Unbelievable.

Today I got some sick leave from the Friday's doctor for the new symptoms but will only use it if I'm not able to be in upright position. I have these "Feel good" meditation courses starting this week and I really really really want to do them. I believe it will be good for me too. And it's not about keeping the meditation classes. That's easy as long as I can speak and read my notes. It's the commuting that I'm worried about. Am I able to do that?

Today I also decided to study more about healthy diet choices for the intestinal organism. My husband is so kind and supporting and will go look after a certain book for me. Anything that helps kick off this condition that I'm currently having.

This is kind of dark, but there's this great song in Finnish called "I don't wanna die tonight" and it's been playing in my head for quite many days now. I agree with the message. You can listen to it here (I hope). It's a beautiful song btw... :-)