Today

One year on and it should hurt less. Shouldn't it?

It doesn't.

It seems to get harder every day. The pain is like nothing imaginable.


Sorry but that has to be written here. When I joined as a lifetime member I was thinking about which photos to include in my book. Farmergirl suggested doing one for Blaze; the year after his death. It is a great idea, perfect for my first blipbook - and this entry will be the last one in it. So it has to be honest.

Thank you to Krysta and Sarah for your support today. You helped keep me sane - though how long that'll last is anyone's guess.

I just read my blip on 20th October last year - and nothing has changed.