my 300th

so maybe i could have reached this earlier if i had tried a bit harder. this week has been one of the worst, but im home now and this is the image i use to try and convince myself that everything will be ok. its just sad when you lose something you thought, however naively, was forever. you mourn what youve lost and you mourn the future you will no longer have.
my biggest strength has become my biggest weakness - putting my heart and soul into something, that just wasnt realised until too late. sometimes you dont realise how much you needed your safety blanket until it is gone.
at least mother nature can remind me that with every sunset, there has to be a sunrise.