Sitting out.

Nick and I took the girls swimming in Dunbar swimming pool. I sat out most of the time, my feet hanging in the water feeling that I didn't want to be there. The wall of heavy warmth and noise that hits as soon as you enter always makes me want to walk right out again. I stayed though, but it was obvious my heart wasn't in it. Rowan was very blunt in her observation that next time it would be OK if I stayed at home and so I hurriedly offered up chips for lunch on the drive back to ease my guilt. The chips went down well, the guilt stayed!