Sometimes I don't see that I am given a life line or help from my own friends. I can be really pigheaded. My Dad has really been trying lately to connect with me. I have been so happy to have a connection with him but on another level I always want the relationship I had with my Mom back.
I know that's not going to happen. I miss her. I still feel like I don't have anyone I can turn to when it's lonely or when I am sad.
It's been a tough week. I need to look for my friends and stop pushing them away.