a need for need

I have come to the conclusion that I need my clients just as much as they need me.
I provide a service where I touch people all day; I do massage therapy and have been doing so for the last 7 years. I like what I do, I like helping others. And anyone in any kind of medical field I think will agree with me when I tell you how wonderful it feels to help others, there is nothing like it. And in my case when you feel helpless and lost and can't help yourself you can turn others who will need you. Someone will always need you.
And as far as touch goes, well, there is something that transpires when you rest your hands on someone, reassurance? comfort? Whatever it is, it's something we all want something we all need. I believe this, and not just because I need it.
This doesn't mean I go around touching random people on the street. I don't impose hugs or hand shakes on people who don't want them. Maybe I'm just referring to my practice and what goes on behind the closed door. The deep breathing, the sigh of relief, the unraveling, the letting go, the unsaid thank you that has been keeping me in this profession for 7 years.
I need to help people in this way. I feel lost when I can't reach someone, especially someone I am intimately close to. If I could just put my hands on you, if you would just let me try.... Touch is so profound, so taken for granted.If I could not do what I do, I think a part of me would die. I feel like there is sinking pulling hole in the core of me helping others helps me stand up straight every morning. It makes me want to be better. It's a start or maybe a purpose or maybe a fairytale.