Heart

I'm back. Back with a full heart. Grateful for all the help, concern, words of love, and prayers that I have received over the past several days.

"Blipper Down" has been the latest expression to stick amongst my family and friends. This blipper has been down for almost 10 days. 10 days of my life that this bacterial infection has taken from me. We are still waiting on lab results but this wasn't the flu or even my appendix (which I ended up in the ER for my first CatScan). This beast is some bacteria that I picked up from either food or water. My opinion is that it was food because I know the restaurant and the meal and the pain in my stomach an hour after eating there. I won't get any more dramatic than this, but a short and simple way to explain "Blipper Down".

I forced myself to walk around in the yard this evening with my camera. My energy level is still zapped but I am so tired of missing out on life around me. I watched my kids play baseball with my husband in the backyard. I was even able to join them for dinner on the patio. Simple things. But things that I have had to miss over the last 10 days.

I took some shots here and there. Nothing to scream blip about. But when I passed this leaf with the heart in the middle, I felt inspired for the first time in over a week to actually take a photo. I love the magic of finding this heart. This heart finding me. Unspoken words from above telling me to hold on to the hope that I will get better. I will get my spark and my spunk back. I'll lace up those spinning shoes again. I'll be able to run around and chase my kids. I can do coffee dates again. I can start looking forward to summer. I'll be able to laugh hard again, pain free.

So here I am. This blipper is back.