Sanity

How to keep my sanity? I feel that I'm over the verge all the time. Both mentally and now especially physically. I have lost more weight. All of my trousers all falling down without a belt. I have been packing, organizing things for moving from morning to evening. My stomach is really bad. Not sleeping enough. Waking up at five in the morning with a creeping angst.

Tonight I went to Espoon keskuspuisto to blip. I ended up at THE STAIRS. Dragging myself back "home", or Timo's home, was utterly exhausting. I had to sit down, and even lie down a couple of times on my way. I don't know how my body will hold up much longer. Or how to stay sane.


Happened today at noon:

I had an appointment with a cleaning company at my new home at 12. So I went let in the cleaning women. No one came. I had to call the company and ask whet was going on. "Oh, we had made an appointment, I have to check with the cleaning ladies, I'll get back to you soon", they answered on the phone.

Ten minutes later they called and said the ladies were on their way, and it would take half an hour to be there. Half an hour! I said that OK, you'll certainly note this in your bill. The answer was "Let's see, life is like this, you know". I would have said that there is no need to come at all but I had to get it done today. The cleaners came one hour later. I haven't seen the result yet.