Another Orchid

Lovely orchid, Enjoy it, its so beautiful. life has gone on once again. I love the Lord and at times its nice and hard.

I miss you today. Somehow I know that life has gone on and you are excited and I miss you. I am excited for you, excited for the adventure that you are on, for the one that I am on. Yet somehow I still miss you, still hear your gentle whisper of I love you and I wonder how my life can move on so not well. I miss the sound of your voice, I miss that smile that is only for me. I miss being able to reach out and touch your face, miss being able to tickle you.
I know, I know, its for the kingdom but i have moments of struggling. I feel like I no longer have the favor of the one we serve.I keep asking myself why waiting is me being bad and in trouble. I wonder if the words echoed in the psalms are meant o be my heart. I love you and I know you love me but somehow I feel silly for missing you so much and hope that the letters i write will mean something. i love you. Here's to the kingdom.