i remember him

many months ago he sent me this pendant. he'd worn it daily since he'd lost someone dear to him and he wanted me to have it. a piece of him. a reminder. because he couldn't be here with me.

he never came to claim it.

tomorrow he goes for his second heart surgery in ten years. i cannot be there with him. wearing this necklace is as close as i can get to him. it's the only gesture allowed me now.

it's not enough but it's all i've got.

i love him.

i am scared for him.

please let him be ok.