Triathlete

This is my friend Vanessa, she has been training for a triathalon for almost three months. Today was the day. She did damm well and I had fun playing 'coach'. She is getting 'numbered' in this picture. According to her if I can train I am competing with her next month, which should be super fun! I dunno....

I missed all your blips yesterday and I forgot to take a picture. Pouty face. But I think the one for today makes up for that.

Life is moving on. Sometimes I am not sure what to do with that. Sometimes i am afraid of that. But at the same time I know this stripping that has happened is a good thing. All my emotions caught up with me today in terms of what the pastors said a week ago. Not the easiest thing in the world. It was good to talk to the Peraldos about it but man it was no fun. The people that are supposed to know me best (my church family) don't know me at all. I feel released from this body, is that a good thing? Life is moving on and i am rejoicing in that. Oh Jesus, give me your peace, the war began again today and my heart hurts. It hurts that I feel like WHO i am isn't good enough. Where is this line? I feel slightly empty today. Apart of me looks at training for a tri as purpose, any purpose right now is something I want to latch onto, plus it would be good for me. 2-3 miles running 750 yard swim and a 8 mile cycle. Purpose.. Sigh a word that I wish I knew more about.

Blow by blow, I didn't see it coming
Blow by blow, sucker punch
Rushes in
Here to stay
Rushes in
You are here to stay

What rushes into my heart and my skull, I can?t control
Think about it, feel it in my bones
What rushes into my heart and my skull, I can?t control

I feel you in my bones
You?re knocking on my windows
You?re slow to letting me go
And I know this feeling oh, so
This feeling in my bones- Tegan and Sara Feel it in my bones...