Special Spot

Today was a day of mixed emotions. Going through pains that are necessary for me in this life style I have chosen for myself, but also realizing that you can't have the best of both worlds. I miss the other world sometime...So I took to the words, where I know I can think clearly and loudly. I wrote some, and took some pictures, and still it lingers...

This feeling is good however, as much as it hurts and I wish it would vanish, it is a feeling I have never had before, a feeling that is so strong and captivating it can bring me to my knees sometimes. I am alive, I feel, I take in, I attempt to understand, and I am alive, I wish it was the opposite end of the spectrum, but know that I must experience this before I can feel something better...funny how life works like that?