Naked

I have so many thoughts tonight. Well, I always have thoughts spinning around coz my mind is one very active mind.

I have been going thru my self. Guided by a person I learned to trust very fast (it was her job but anyway). We went thru my childhood, from the very beginning until the very now moment. I guess that might be good for everyone but in my particular case it is more then good (lol). No wonder I was exhausted last week. The result will be good, for me, for my family, for my life.

Now I will have understanding, for my self, for my own being. The people around me, the ones who already seen the true me and like me for what I am wont see so much of a different. Yet I will notice and my closest ones (like Tommy).

Nothing has changed really in the big picture and I am feeling good, full of hope, full of love, but, theres always a little but:

I feel so naked, I feel so vulnerable. I do feel so alone right now and I need time to reflect, process and to understand. I do understand in the center of my heart and i feel a huge relief, but yet... so many thoughts to sort out.

Ok guys, I know i am like an open book but there is a reason for it. Some of you might think I am too open and yes, I am. But I like to see it this way, it might be someone out there who don't have what I have, the understanding, the family, the close and warm friends. Someone who can identify with my words. Maybe it will help someone on this planet. IF that will be the case, my mission is done.

Annelie