Where did you go?

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately.
And it all culminated in one major freak out tonight.
A freak out in private.

You see, I could count friends and easily fill up a party hall with those people.
But I can't say I could count on the majority of them.

Life right now is a ridiculous back and forth of high school drama in which I just can't win.

I'm sick of losing.