My angel

Whole my life long I begun to make wreaths for the first day of advent, had some glög while making them and after that I prepared the house for Christmas.
Now it is the first year I only begun today to put the lights out and I took my angel out again. I made it years ago and since mom is not there anymore, an angel has its' place in my house. No children any more coming home, no more festivities together.That is the way life goes, but it certainly is not the way I would have liked it to go..We are so far from each others.When you get married you don't think about the distances. It is only now that you notice. With three little boys it is not easy to travel from the other side of the world for holidays.
So I sort of don't care anymore.