Star of Shining Beauty Bright

We're into single figures now so I felt I could afford myself a bit of Christmas indulgence and put up a star. Is it the star of wonder, is it the star of bethlehem, are they one and the same? When I tried blipping the star I was sent into panic, it seems that Christmas had crept up on me. Do I sound confused, like I've had a bump on the head? I feel it. I took a lovely out of focus shot of lights and felt it truly reflected my mood, unable to hold a thought or to focus. I decided not to use it as it looks like a naff photo, rather than a state of mind.

I had coffee this morning with a very old and dear friend. Carol and I have know each other since she was 15 and came to work a summer in our office. Her mum worked there and she always thought I was such a sensible, caring, loving, responsible girl, I know there were times when her mum wished she was 'more like you'. Later we bought a flat together, a radical thing for two 21 year olds. Still her parents held a torch for me - how Carol put up with it I don't know, I was a bad influence on her and the worst thing she taught me, all size skinny of her, was to eat much more than you could possibly imagine, Sadly she remained skinny and I grew. How was that possible, I was eating less than her!

Now in our middle life, we know more about each other than anyone else. She is my star, she guides me through the good and bad, a beacon of light which I turn to in need.

In her honour, and in honour of my cooker departing tomorrow (snow permitting) I made scones - because that how long the oven works for - clever really.