Where did everything go?

I am deep today. It gives me time to reflect, time to crawl into my very own space, inside the deepest place in my heart.

The past few month have been so rough and in the same time, so good. Me and Tommy took a life changing decision, our economy is now ok, the kids are ok (so ok they can be being teens and in the age of 8). I have managed to stress down and not take things so deeply serious all the time. I have managed to create some balance inside. Yet, there is something missing, something going on in the shadows and I cant understand what it is.

I am frenetical trying to explore my inside. Trying to find that missing part which is causing me those troubled thoughts. Maybe I shouldn't give a damn. Maybe I should just let it go and send my thoughts as a packet to universe and let the huge love just take care of it. Could it be so simple, just to let it go, out of my system, out of my energy? I guess so and maybe this is what I am supposed to do today while I am cleaning this messy house of ours.

Sister Hazel, Your winter...

Well, I have made up my mind. Tonight I will crawl into the arms of my knight and let him heal me and rest in his power. I will not give a shit about that missing part inside, it will be ok and, I wont quit blip. Thank you people, for following this crazy journal, this crazy woman with the deepest mind on earth and for the courage, love and understanding.

I need you all.

Annelie