H is for Heather!!

This blip will go out to my little sister!
20 years old on Monday but she will always be little to me!
I have to try to keep myself in check and not try to protect her. She's big enough and ugly enough to make her own decisions (even if i don't agree with them). But it was drummed into me from a young age that she was mine to look after! She was the baby of the family for soo long!!
She'll be the first to tell you that me looking out for her mainly consists of me meddeling, being a bitch and nit picking.
We both moved out of mums around the same time and during my own panic of OMG i'm really on my own now how will i survive I had a panic about her.
How would she survive on her own, would she have enough money, will she starve to death since she can only make beans on toast, what if she shrinks all her clothes trying to wash them. The big one what if it does't work out with her B/f who she's living with, will she be strong enough to make the cut. It was all so fast!!
All of my panic is unfouded of course. The pychologist in me would say i was projecting my own fears onto her. She's florished and doing fine! Her and her B/f are still together. I'm doing fine! I've not pinned for home like i thought i would.
I wish we had retained some more of the closness we had when we lived together. I hope that she will remain a very large part in my life. I want her to celebrate big events with. I want her to be crazy aunty Heather who comes round and feeds my little ones (when i have them) sugar and then buggers off to leave me to deal.
I know that will require me to bite my tounge more and speak up less and be a little nicer! But i am trying! I promise!