My funny Valentines

The news came today of Reuben's multiple segmentation anomalies affecting the cervical spine, partial fusion of vertebrae in several locations, and scoliosis. I recognized the names, the Cs and Ts from my sciatica before Callum was born when my chiro would call them out as he worked on them.

A very up and down Valentine's Day - up finishing my processing yesterday's shoot, down Reuben missing school for one day for another cough, very down, the news from his scan, up dear friend Mary calling from Boston to wish me happy Valentine's, down when I let it all out to Mum and Dad on the phone, up Reuben using the potty and being very pleased with himself, down when I broke down in the playroom, up when Callum walked over to me then with a sweet smile on his face and looked incredibly directly into my eyes, took my cheeks in his hands and gave me a kiss. That was God sent. His action, intuition and delivery. Extraordinary really. Ended the day with buying the boys Valentine's balloons and a bottle of fizz for me though I'm reticent to open it now with the thought of bedtime solo and the school run again. We watched the sun descend on the beach at Playa del Rey as the balloons became entwined, just like my little boys.

With plenty of chocolates, flowers and hearts around on the thumbnails, there's a lot of Valentine's love around. Last year's thumbnail's really sweet (click below). The gifts were actually borrowed from a passerby whom I had photographed.

When I have moments, I think too hard about the future and I'm frankly very scared. I am not the type to live independently; I never have. I long for companionship and wonder how much longer I shall be without it. Any takers out there? Well, had to ask ;-)

PS: The song will always remind me of my friend Janelle.