The world spins madly on

The whole world is moving and I'm standing still...

Lately everything seems surreal
Nothing has meaning, nothing scares me, and nothing hurts
I took a sunset walk and the cold couldn't touch me
And I've been smiling
For the first time in a long time

But at the same time, nothing's okay
It can't be safe to be this numb
Because that makes the downfall that much more painful, right?

But you've got me wondering where the smoke goes once its black stream is invisible
I'm so inspired
And I can't capture it
No matter what I do, I can't grasp it
This is beyond me