Transformation

"IF you can keep your head when all about you Are losing theirs and blaming it on you, If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you, But make allowance for their doubting too; If you can wait and not be tired by waiting, Or being lied about, don't deal in lies, Or being hated, don't give way to hating, And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise: If you can dream -and not make dreams your master; If you can think -and not make thoughts your aim; If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster And treat those two impostors just the same; If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools, Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken, And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools: If you can make one heap of all your winnings And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss, And lose, and start again at your beginnings And never breathe a word about your loss; If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew To serve your turn long after they are gone, And so hold on when there is nothing in you Except the Will which says to them: 'Hold on!' If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue, ' Or walk with Kings -nor lose the common touch, if neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you, If all men count with you, but none too much; If you can fill the unforgiving minute With sixty seconds' worth of distance run, Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it, And -which is more -you'll be a Man, my son!"

This used to be on the wall at an outdoor centre I worked at. I used to read it pretty much every day, wise words indeed.
I feel like a transformation is happening inside of me, one chapter of my life is closing rather than being sad I'm thankful that I had it, its now time to move on to the next. I shared my journey with someone speacial but now our paths go seperate ways. I applied for my visa to india yestetday, I go in about five weeks. Packing up all the stuff I want to keep and selling the rest, I'm so excited and scared of what im about to do, completly bricking it to be honest. But fear I belive can be such a positive emotion. Without fear how do you know your alive.
I'll survive I'm planning on thriving, ive got my sparkle back, many happy memories, to remember .