June Gloom

It has become SO difficult for me to find anything of beauty here outside of my children. When June Gloom skulks in, I honestly just want to give it a boot to the ass and bon voyage it all the way to St. Louie. Come on, seriously?!

I want:
For these gray skies to clear out. Like now.
To be settled.
Property. Surrounded by beauty. All the time, no matter the season.
A space for all of my babies, no matter how seldom they are available to fill it.
A new car that doesn't make that scary noise that this one has made for over a year now.
To be closer to Patrick.
Less unpleasant attitudes in my near-proximity. They are affecting me, no matter how much I try to deflect them.
More organization.
A renewed desire to keep on keeping on.
The ability to stop and breathe.
To live what I believe.
Focus. Determination. Stamina.
A craftsman style home (or similar) but new, built from the ground up with my ideas in place.
A decorator's eye.
To not have rosy skin that is getting worse with age.
For Erin to drive.
More diamonds. And a string of pearls. And while I'm wishing for the ridiculous:
A really nice camera that I have to figure out
A Kate Spade handbag
A Vera Wang cocktail dress
Loubitan heels

But honestly.....
All I really want is for this June Gloom to pass on through.

Next week I'm in Bristol, Tenn., at my favorite track of all time. There will be sun. And there will be beauty. And there will be friends and hugs and laughter and work and love and.... well. Normalcy. Which is quite weird, when you think about it.