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Kinda freaks you out, huh? I was looking through Penelope's moonroof while I was in traffic and I saw this. On several buildings, actually. But this one makes me feel odd. Then again, I feel odd anyway.

A conversation came up the other day about Roos sneakers. I automatically referenced an event (in association to the kicks) I experienced that I had thought was banished altogether, but there it was, flying out of my mouth. I was surprised it has come out so easily, and in that moment I was feeling that event and all it's implications.

I used to own a pair of Roos and on some random tracking skydive (I used to be licensed) I lost one shoe the way out the door. My left foot automatically felt the prop blast and for the next minute or so, it grew remarkably cold, numb, but still more alive and more aware than that of the rest of my body. I kept the remaining shoe, but after I changed things, I got rid of the shoe to preserve my senses. I guess it turns out that those so called banished memories are remaining in whole, just under a few layers of emotional associations.

This point of view makes me feel like I did when I was falling to Earth at great speeds. So there you have it; what was gone is actually here to stay. Or at least just rapidly cycling around you, at great speeds. It just takes that one hiccup to make it slow down and be acknowledged.