Ups and Downs

AKA Swings and roundabouts

The girls were off school today so we went to a couple of parks and they played and took their bubble guns while I sat in the sun and tweeted. I love going to the park but would like someone to share pushing duties sometimes.
Especially on the basket swing or when they both want pushing at once!

Spent a long time today pondering about this dating business. Should I see the chap from the weekend again? I'm totally in two minds and don't know what to do.

We are both playing it a bit cool...truth be told...he's playing it a bit cooler than me! And it's sending me a bit potty.

Got advice online and off but I admit I'm a bit pig headed and generally ignore what's been said. Sometimes to my detriment.

Problem is... I don't trust my instincts anymore...and as a huge chat this evening proved. I completely contradict myself all the time in what I want.

To quote Mr Brown "I wanna be adored" but like it when I'm kept on my toes.

I want someone to look after me but not interfere with my independant life with my girls.

Yeah. it's tricky.

So weighing up pros and cons
The swings and the roundabouts
The ups and the downs.

Still none the wiser even though I've been mulling it over all day.

Have been playing music all afternoon while the girls played outside with water...

As I got a text from the bloke in question one of my favourite New Order tunes came on.

Another conundrum.....

The words = very apt
The Title = Regret. hmmmmm



"I would like a place I could call my own
Have a conversation on the telephone
Wake up every day that would be a start
I would not complain of my wounded heart

I was upset you see
Almost all the time
You used to be a stranger
Now you are mine

I wouldn't even trust you
I've not got much to give
We're dealing in the limits
And we don't know who with
You may think that I'm out of hand
That I'm naive, I'll understand
On this occasion, it's not true
Look at me, I'm not you"

Regret. New Order