shellshock

still in shock over yesterday's news. still can't believe it - i never thought you'd have the guts to leave, tbh; guess you're like i was the first time round, just talked about it so long you talked yourself into it. you say it was offchance, you weren't looking, someone told you about a job upcoming and put a word in, but i do wonder - i didn't realise you and S were so chatty these days that it would happen. interesting. and why not tell me? ok, don't tell me you've got it upcoming, i get the jinx factor, but you say you only told the desk friday, so how come downtable know all about it by sunday? i wonder. and if you've told the desk you're going, why not then tell me? i wasn't in, but i have a phone, email, a landline - aren't we friends? it doesn't feel like it. and this is all part of why it hurts and i can't be so happy for you as i want to be - never mind that i feel like i'm losing you (you'll say i won't but i'm confident i will - i pretty much have already this past year, after all).