Ups and downs.

I didn't get any sleep last night because my mum was talking constantly. I got up to see what was going on and she was talking to her dressing gown that was draped over her zimmer frame.
The next time I got up because she was still talking she said she was talking to my sister (she thinks her children are still little).
I tried a few hours of playing relaxation and sleep inducing apps and stuff but I could still hear her voice because I've become so tuned in to listening out for it.

Around 5am I got up and was so desperate for sleep I gave her a sedative which I very rarely do and if I'd been thinking clearly I wouldn't have given her one that late on.

I went back to bed and just enjoyed the silence and then i heard a noise and went downstairs. She was on the floor having slid off her chair.

I was drained so got some help to get mum up off the floor and also used a gadget I'd bought which is really to help someone get in and out of the bath but I wasn't going to pay the extremely high prices for something specifically for getting her off the floor so tried one of these and it does the job.

Managed to get her on her chair and she stayed there all day but tonight after I'd ordered a takeaway because I just didn't have the energy to cook anything I went downstairs and found mum on the floor again.

Have to say that I had to let her eat while sitting on the floor and then got everything out again to get her up.

This time I put her to bed after giving her her medication. I also moved the room around so that her commode is next to the bed so she doesn't have to walk any distance and her chair is on the other side of it.

I have tried to think of every eventuality. She has a half length side of the bed to prevent her rolling out of bed and I am dreading her being on the floor again in the morning.

I am absolutely drained. I'm in the process of arranging respite from next Monday as I just can't keep doing this. I need a break.