I am loving classes thus far. It's weird not taking any science or math classes for the first time in 7 years...

Its nothing new, I feel like bursting out in tears at random points of the day because of what was in stark contrast to what is. But i'm trying something new, I'm seizing that anxiety and not allowing it to overcome me. Sometimes I literally denounce its hold on me out loud. It works, but its a battle. I feel like every day is a battle. I don't handle unresolved conflict well at all-it bothers me to my core. Even though its been 6 months, I feel like every day i'm stepping on new ground, learning to handle everything autonomously. I used to know it felt like to have peace in my life, I am going to get that back. One day, I will be able to think of you without fear, remorse, and loneliness welling up in my heart.

This year I want to...
make new quality friends
join a church/small group
heal
Become a volunteer big sister
Sing, write, read, bike, and run more
Find a routine
Improve my Arabic
Learn what it means to trust God