A day of numbness for me today. I want to cry and feel pain and yet I feel nothing. I feel guilty for not grieving the way my sisters are, I know how much I loved my Gran and yet I can't cry for her passing.

I think that too much is happening for me.

My marriage is not in a good place at the moment. My husband told me a week ago that he felt that he wanted to leave, we are trying this month to try and turn our marriage around and find us again but it is hard and for me so tough. I want him to stay with all my heart yet he is slipping away.

I feel that everything in my life is being taken away.

Todays picture doesn't go with my thoughts at all but he is one of my few reasons to smile and whilst my babies are happy I can cope.