The first birthday without her!

Today would have been my mum's 75th birthday! A very sad day for us all as she missed it by 3 weeks! It never ever occurred to me that she wouldn't celebrate this one!

I'm so down I'm off work, I know that I need to get it together but I truly am struggling! J helped me pick a tree to plant in our garden to mark the day. Small and delicate just like the little lady herself! Dad came over and we had dinner and a quiet reflective evening!

Mum, everyday I wake I think of you and how special you were and I desperately wonder how I will get through another day without hearing your voice or seeing your face.

I miss seeing how gentle and caring you were with the girls. They cry and tell me they miss their wee granny!

I tell them you are now an angel and you will watch over them now in a very special way from heaven, and our job is to look after grandad until you see each other again!

I hope that's true and you will continue to guide me to make the right choices in life, to be a good wife, mother and daughter!

You are forever in my heart, xxx